Hitting a rough spot on the road. I am falling back into the dark place where i do not want to be. I am an emotional bomb ready to go off at any moment and i hate that. I can't seem to control my raw emotions, i don't have a hold of my thoughts. Everything is mushing together making loose my damn mind. I feel like i'm drowning in my own thoughts and emotions, no one to throw me a line to help me get out. More like i am being pushed down made to drown......I want to focus on something else but its too much at this moment i cannot maintain my focus, cannot stay positive. I hate being tested in this manner. Wish there was an off switch wish things were simple. IT NEVER IS.....i hate struggling :'-(