Chevelle Concert

So the concert was on Friday the 19th right and well i had been looking forward to going. I could wait to freaking go, and like usual i go alone (es mi dicha jajaja) so anyways i thought i would go there early kus there were only 3 bands playing so might as well make it $30 worth right. So the first 2 bands played, they were ok then Chevelle was up next and god damn did people get crazy. I made my way towards the center front area, trying to get a good view (i had too my height is a downside to concerts) i kinda did minus the big dude standing in front of me i could get a pretty good view. Well anyways a few minutes till they played people started pushing and shit the usual concert scene right. Well whatever i didn't mind it was all right. But then everyone started to get rilled up and really pushing and shooving, bad enough that you could literally fall over if you didn't step correctly to balance yourself out. So from where i was a mosh pit started (and since there were mostly guys there things got pretty intense pretty quick) i got pushed back and back and back till i was pretty much out where people just stand to watch (safe zone) lol well there was a rail there and i held on to it kus i didn't want to any further out so i stayed (fuck that, i wasn't going to try to get back up there it was dangerous lol) So guys were moshing like crazy (still) and somehow i lost balance and stumbled in there for a sec (if it weren't for sum guy who was behind me i would have fallen and who knows what would have happened. Guys are so inconsiderate, there were a few girls there that fell in the pit too (they got pushed in) and guys would just mosh against them, geez could they be more careful? Guess not most of the guys moshing looked like big dumb ass brutes. Then you had guys who looked out for those poor souls that made there way there unwillingly (that's dude for the hand really helped a lot). So it wasn't all that bad. lol there was a point where 2 guys fell in front of me one landed in front of me and the other behind me, then i had a big guy in front of me that moved so damn much i had to keep my eyes on his arm kus i had a feeling he was going to hit me, and he almost did i felt his arm/elbow brush against my cheek, which i moved back too fast and ended up hitting the guy behind me (so sorry bout that). So besides that the concert was good, i just wish i could have enjoyed it more, like i have with other concerts. (sighs) well maybe next time. oh yeah i think 30 dollars for that concert was over priced, that's just my opinion. and after that i just had to go get a couple of drinks....so i did and that was my night (i think that was worst i've smelled before after a concert.....even the day after i could smell cig smoke, ewww)

Breaking Benjamin Concert

So i saw breaking benjamin yesterday nite and oh man was it awesome, the concert started at 6 or 7 i think but i got there like around 8, i got to see Papa Roach beforehand though so that was cool. I missed out on Sick Puppies and The Red. Oh well that sucks but i did see the main guys so its all good. I had fun like always though i did mind that i was behind sum shirtless kid that was all fucking sweaty! EWWWWW as much as i tried not to get too close to him it was unstoppable there was so many people crowding around and shit it was nasty having someone elses sweat on you! Plus lets not forget those people who did not take a shower talk about nasty. JAJAJAJA bueno aside all that stuff i didn't give a fuck i just wanted to fucking have a great time which i did so its all good. Next concert thats coming up is Chevelle OMFG i cannot wait for that one its going to be bad ass!!! Well thats in October so there is a long wait. Its all good though. Its all good!

como es la vida

Como es la vida, nunca se sabe que es lo que va a pasar. Yo aun no encuentro mi lugar pero eh aprendido a aceptar las cosas, ya que todo pasa por alguna razon que nosotros talvez nunca comprendemos. Yo se que soy una chava buena honda y lo que sea. Pero lo unico que quiero es que alguien me ame tal como yo a el. No es tan difil pero como por tal razon no eh encontrado eso. Mi gran temor es de enamorame de alguien y que ellos no de mi. Yo tengo mucho que dar pero la oportunidad no se a presentado. Yo se que soy capas de dar mucho y talvez mas, solo necesito una oportunidad, una oportunidad de mostrar lo que tengo en mi..... Ya estoy cansada de pasar por la misma situacion, cuando sera el dia que me encuntre en el camino a ese hombre que me ame como me meresco ser amada. Cuando se dara ese dia. Ya no quiero tratar con niños que apenas saben que es lo que ellos quieren. Yo necesito un hombre que ya sepa que es lo que busca y que ya tenga el camino de su vida planeada o al menos tener una idea en donde el quiere estar. NO MAS MOCOSOS! I am done!! Mi vida nunca sera normal, nunca y eso es la verdad. Si yo pudiera tener mi vida como yo quisiera seria de otra forma, viviria a lo maximo jaja pero no es asi. Mi vida es lo que es porque no tengo de otra, y por el momento ago lo que puedo para que no sea tan tan aburrida pero temo decir que en eso eh fracasado. En este lugar me siento como una prisionera que no tiene a donde ir ni a quien ver. Todo puediera ser distinto si no estuvieramos aqui pero bueno las cosas tienen que ser de esta manera por el momento. Ya vendra en dia que no por fin sea libre LIBERTAD eso es lo que mas deseo. Por que aunque me digan que soy libre NO lo soy. Un dia......un dia llegara.

The Fool

How could i have believed all those lies?
How could i have trusted that look in your eyes?
How could i?
How?

I must have been blinded with a red velvet cloth
to no be able to see all that you truly were
your words so distant with no feeling in them
your touch so cold and frail
the look in you eyes so dark and deep
your heart as hard and cold as the words you spoke.

A fool i was to think you were real
Saying beautiful things in my ear
wrapped up in the things i wanted to hear
saw what i feared was not real.
Standing still with nothing else to say
Repeating How could i, how could i?
How?...

*this one is new just thought it up this morning

Jealousy

My heart burst with jealousy
to know that another girl exists
you interest in her is so big
that it makes what we had insignificant
in my mind i wish the bitch was gone
or maybe just give her a piece of my mind
how can i not be mad at someone who took you way from me?
she is taking the best thing i have
and what do i have to show for it
this hear bursting with jealousy.

*another old piece i did WAY long ago

Shit

I can't stand the way you are
many things that you do wrong
so many times that i get upset
there is no say of what you are going to come up next.
Your style is so ordinary
anyone can guess what you are going to do
no sense in direction
no taste what so ever
all you are is a piece of shit
waiting to get stepped on.

* this one i wrote a long time ago too- and it still seems like it needs more

shy sweet girl

Shy sweet girl
the one who sits in the corner
keeps everything to herself
never bothered by anyone
rarely speaks out
no one remembers she is there
inside her head
confusion
lost in a swarm of thoughts
doesn't know who she is

years go by and this shy sweet girl
is still the same
or is she?
from far she is but deep inside she is not
she is now a fan of punk and rock
no longer listening to pop
she is a punk a bit crazy
with the image of a regular person but still sweet as usual

she has found what she likes
but is still lost when it come to life...

*i wrote this a long long time ago

The awakening

In dark shadows and hidden places lie feelings in a dormitory state. Unaware and unknown that that's where they lay. The time has come, i feel them stirring up a storm awaiting for their release from the place they are concealed. I can feel each one awaken to a feeling i have never before felt. Its presence gives life to them, as they all awaken they are released, i can feel them make their way through my body like bugs crawling through my skin. I was scared to have this happen, but its not as bad as you think. Who would have know that this is how it feels to fall in love.

*note: i just came up with this, me nacio jaja it wasn't what i was going for but its ok

i hand't really thought about doing this till earlier, it was something i did, not very often but i did it and its been a long time since i haven't so i decided to start a new one. you know new year so why not, i do look back at my old one and think that the fuck was i thinking haha but you know what that was what i was going through at that time and its all things that i felt so yeah it did me good to let them out. i guess we'll see how this turns out. bring on the year...

---d.